O, raving madness
You dwell upon this heart and mind
when I feel like trapped in routines
when I just want to release them all
when I’m not sure where I want to go
when only a thin line drawn between cry and anger
You are there
I found you in outrageous rhyme and loud music
where tones seem not in their right place
where growls and screams are banging my eardrums
I found you in wine-drinking
delirious revelry--though so not me
exhausting all night party
I found you in misspelled languages
strange habits, unpredictable actions
like someone’s yelling “fire” at the theatre*
But I also could find you in a lonely dark room
when this rush of mind makes me feel like my head is going to explode
when I can’t handle it anymore
Anarchy, it’s been so long
It’s so rare--the passion to destruct all things built
though you’re indestructible
and life itself always exists
Although I’m not one of your Maenads, ripping clothes off, eating raw meats, fleeting into orgies
though I’m a city dweller, far from your hidden caves and wild forests
I need you sometimes--just a tiny lesson, otherwise I’ll end up on streets eating garbage--
to dance with you carelessly, without anything to worry
so I can keep the balance
so I can accept the fact
that there’s always insanity, peeping through the holes
waiting for the right time to knock heads off--it will happen, sooner or later:
when people trust their logic blindly
when people think that they are always capable of everything
when people put Order as a monolithic, one true and only god
* from Every Time I Die song “Champing at the Bit”
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